Oh-mi-wtf-bbq-GOSH. I went to school todays. Like hell, I actually went to school. Be proud of me baby! I went to SCHOOL :D SCHOOL :D SCHOOL :D Okays, whatever school sucks. I wonder why am I so happy that I went to school. Slack with Vincent until 3 am plus then he come my house play audition til 5, then shoo-ed him off. Cause I had to prepare for school. PUKED. Yes loves, I puked while attempting to go school after a longlong time. AH-HAH, this proves that I have phobia of school. A psychological barrier. Hmm, maybe I can used this excuse to skip school. Then I can be homed-school baby! Went to school, felt disgusted. School table sucks yo. Chairs too. Eeeeeew. They had PE, I went to toilet and sat there like a retard. Called gan`marmyy. Wanted to run out of school, but in the end stupid Ah-Zak spotted me. Forced me to go GO. FUCK YOU _|_ Nabei, actually can go have fun but in the enddddd. Rahhhhs, marmyy came to pick me up. After that went to QinEn's house to sleep. Sleep until 7 then wake up. After that go home, play AUDI ( x3 ). It's love. Lalalala~

Crapped abit on MSN, and like hahas. SI-DEAN, keep having typo. Wakakas, what "loo", "lool", "tyoe". HAHAS, yous RETARD xD

I miss yous.
Yeahs, I do miss yous. But in front of yous and other people I only act like your buddy. Some people knows I like yous, but cannot say out loud or confess to yous cause I knows yous won't like me ders. Sure ders. Yous got say before yous don't ahlian ahlian kind of girl. Then I know myself I look like ahlian and people also say I ahlian. Haish. I DON'T WANT TO BE AHLIAN. If only I am not who I am now, and I've met yous earlier then maybe there would have been chance for the 2 of us. For now, i'll just be yours listening ear if yous need one. Yous cans tell me your troubles ands everythings, and it will all be within me. Not re-said to anyone else. Swear that ( x100 ). Wonder when cans see yous again, but yous got girlfriend lers. Sure ders, yous always have one by yours side, cause of your looks? Maybe I was attracted to yous by your appearance at first, but now I like yous for who yous are. And how yous understand people. If only there was a chance for me to prove it to yous, and that yous will tell me yous love me too. If only. That's a chance out of a million, equivalent to impossible. And to that, I think i've said my piece. Let nature take its course then.

ILOVEYOUS :D

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

Never go to school for one whole week again, nothing to do at home so always go out. But go out also no money, so very jialart like that. Last night ton with Zhong. Sibei fuck cause he keep shooting me, so dulan. But he auto buy drink for me without me asking, somemore is he treat ders. Thankyous Zhong :) Then he don't let me smoke also, say I must finish the drink then cans smoke. But I cannot finish eat the cheecheongfan until very full ): he purposely ders lors. But in the end I finish the drink I also cannot smoke cause too bloated lers. Rahhhs, then in the lift he tell me not to smoke say cause his friend one time smoke before then like behind got alot people pushing him to the lift door then got one voice say, "xiao didi, zai dian ti li bu ke yi chou yan". (Young boy, cannot smoke in the lift.) It totally freak me out lahs, then I didn't dare to smoke in the lift lors. Even when I at staircase also very scared. But I ta bo lei tahan, then I just smoke lers.

Holidays was like.. Bombs ? Yeah, a lot of things happen. Especially unexpected things happen.

Friday; went the juvenile court. Cheeeeeebyeeee. I dulan lers, the stupid counselor at first keep like making the situation worse by emphasizing how critical my conditions were. Fuck her mans, talk for like an hour plus? Make me so dulan cans. 3 plus finally can go off lers. When going to meet korkor, Han smsed me. Ask me go sentosa, lols lahs. I just so happen to be near harbour front. Yous lucky bastard bodoh! Hahas. Went there slack around for awhile. Then baby finally called :D (yippy!) I thought he forgot about calling me and I was about to be emo again. Then he ask me go watch movie with him together with ahboonboon ( [: ) and adrain they alls. In the end stupid adrain and people pangsehs us. Only ahboon, ddar and i go watch "Step Up 2". Woots, the dance moves totally was like woah. Sure yous stun tio like me also xD After that rush down with ddar to chalet. Damn retard cans, go there lers everyone all I bu ren shi ders. Except got Sky ( ah-bish! ), Dean, Pohyng, Pekky, and Matthew ( zz . ). Sat around and watched them played cards. "fighting" with Dean over a lollipop stick ( =="! ), so dumbbs cans. After that I tired lers, sleep on ddar ders leg and then fall asleep... ( zzZ . ) Then Yuelong came in, rahhhhs. He wake me up lors, si xiiao long ): HAHAHAS. Say what the bed was reserve for me and ddar only. Boo`shit yo. In the end ddar and I sleep until 2 plus. Bui tahan they talk, so we go out beach slack and sio hoonki. After that come back around 5 plus. Go makan with pekky. Come back lers, make friends with Pohyng. Then fight with Kendrick. Damn dulan lors, Matthew help me ask him back for my money. Then si Ken-dick show me attitude. Nabei cheebye lors him. Humph ( |: ). They he wanted hit me somemore, then Matthew and Pohyng stop him and help protect me. Thankq Pohyng. None for Matthew cause yous told me got red wine in the end have martel only. Actually bui pai lers, but also nots yous pay ders. After that go home bathhhh.

Saturday; after bath went down to baby's house. He go bath then I read "lao fu zi". After that I too tired doze off on his bed. Half way through he wake me up, cause he cook for me meegoreng ( :D ). Thanks. After eat, then we sleep.. After wake up lers, meet Zhanrong at bishan slack with him. After awhile Gary`daddii come meet us also. After awhile we go together to Chalet again. Stupid Ken-dick ask Clive not to bring me go. Humph. Angrys. But Sky tell me to just go, if Ken-dick not happy say go look for Sky. Tan-k-keu-SUPERMAN ( [: ). After wards, slack until 3 plus. Marmyy call me tell me Kailing ( Kor ders ex |: ) run away with a guy ( LETIAN -bastart ). Damn dulan, shall not emphasize. But that night wanted to go kio daiji ones lors with the bitch and bastard. Then when go aljunid that time, Pohyng and I zao cab. I first time zao cab hear one uncle only say "bu yao pao" then never run after yous. Make us run so fast for nothing. In the end ddar cannot ton, but Pohyng ask me ton so I anything lors. When I over there like some blurblur ders person. At some time Dean come talk to me, then we chat chat for quite long until Pohyng Samuel Angel Jeffrey and some other people pull 2 of us go beach walkwalk. Coincidentally, at that time korkor reach lers. So I borrow money from Deann help pay cab fare. Thankq Dean, I owe yous $2.20 now. Hurhur. Kor pei me slack whole night lors, thank yous kays (: and Dean ofcourse. So dumbb cans, at 6 plus he sms. But my phone no battery. So I bobian 7 plus then read, but is use Dean ders phone. Then the sms come in I also don't know whose number lai ders, so I reply "yous who". Hahas, turn out to be Dean asking me where am I. So retarded.

Sunday; Pohyng and kor pei me go home change. This time zao cab agains. Use my old trick, cannot say scarly the uncle know is me ( |: ). After that Vince come meet us slack. Then we go play lan at Timah. So funnys cans. Play until very shiok. Around 6 korkor go home. Then Pohyng and Vince pei me home. They makan at my house. They machiam stupid cans, fight over the peanut. Hahas. Then in my room I tired until fall asleep then I don't know what they doing ... After that they go home. Around nine plus ddar come look for me. I go and meet him awhile then come home sleep lurs.

Sleep until next day 11 plus then wake up. So never go school. Machiam that day I quarrel with my real`papa. Then he threaten me want take back my phone and laptop. So angrys cans. In the end I run to kor ders house with my laptop. Slack until 9 plus then go home. Todays also never go school.


It seems to hard to carry on this relationship, so difficult to hold on. With you constantly having doubts in your mind, and my heart aching with the past memories, it's just seem impossible already. The love is dead. In case you haven't realise.

Just another 12 more hours or so, and I get to see your face again. I'm missing alots. Heard your voice, got me flustered. Heart beating hard and fast. It was the same delight when I first knew you. It's breathtaking, making it difficult for me to breathe. Suffocating. If only you can be by my side forever. Please tell me that those promises you made to me weren't just empty ones, tell me that it will stay by you and me forever. Never have this love sickness stick by me for so long, it is the longest devotion I ever had. The least favourite sound that I ever want to hear is the sniffs of your cries. It cause me heartbreaks, guilt-ridden. 3 more days, to imperfection love 2 months. It may not be perfect, but it's beautiful. Cause it's our own love story. Yes, just me and you.


I love you, dear.

i miss you loads, baby! when is he gonna come back from camp mans ): i wanna see him. bleahhs. this sucks yo. i feel so guilty after kai told me that he was emoing because of me the other day and he couldn't stop crying also lurs. gosh, dardar i'm sorrys! damn, why wasn't i more understanding. sians. but we okays lers, yays. butbut he at camp now. tomorrow then come back. humph. tomorrow faster come, i wanna talk to my dardar! stupid time tick so slow. laters going out meet jeanny they all. sian lurs, they forcing me to drink. not like i don't like but very strong lurs. 26% =="! i think i am gonna faint mans. no need come home. hope later remember to take picture then post ^^. yesterday meet with twinnie at her house then after that we go korkor house. was raining darn heavily, my hoonki got wet ): at korkor house we watch final destination 3. sians lors, cannot find the nun cause other time i watch half ways only lors. never watch the ending. this time the TF3 also, never watch ending sians. after that manage to contact gary`daddii. he was at school having remedial, so guai go to school :D hahas, then cause zhanrong smsed me the previous night so also ask him come out slack. they both come around like 1 plus 2. slack until 4 like that. dumbdumb zhanrong, suddenly emo lors. make us all damn worried. first is kailin pei him go back block first. then daddii and me go buy hoonki. wanted to buy Zen ders, but the store close. so pekcek nors. cannot buy my nicenice hoonki ): ohyahs, damn funny lors. took a video of daddii and zhanrong acting gays ^^. and somemore one picture that gary`daddii like want to bua zhanrong's LJ. hahas. post laters. then call my papa ask him pick me up, knn lors. on the way he keep suaning my friends. damn pekcek, make me quarrel with him. then he keep calling me stupid, until i very angrys. then i keep crying at home. suppose go yishun meet kailin ders then later she need go home. diaos. but coincidence, junyang call me ask me want meet him nots. then i anything lors. he come my house pick me then we go block 270 rooftop slack. damn nice lors. got star blink blink ders. hahas. need to go out lers. meeting them at 12. gosh, i'm gonna be late.

I MISS YOU CLIVE LIM.

GUAILAN KIA .

damn dulan now lors. some humji kia tag dasao's blog and say kor ugly. knn. yous very shuai/chio is it, yous judge people by their cover. do yous think it's the correct and wise thing to do. please lahs, grow ups. yous not a 3 year old boyboy/girlgirl innocent as can be cans. think twice before you act cans. also you think i cannot track you is it. you are at WAR MEMORIAL PARK. for the past like one hour to 2 hours? yups. noob. want to hong gan people then put your name lahs, humji lahs yous. put what fucking passer. if it is us, we want to gan people we put our name there de hors, and somemore BIGBIGBIG de. knn pcb. grow up please xiao boyboy/girlgirl.

diaos, make me so dulan.




FUCK OFF HUMJI KIA:D

SIANNNNN ): now holidays, never go school nothing do at home. Only can go out play play then come back play play then like never do anything ders. Actually when have school I also like that, like damn fucking no difference. Cheebye, stupid Junyang go gan Marcus for nothing ): just cause Markyy jokejoke with me to say want fuck me then Junyang dulans. But thank yous lahs kays. I know you "teng" me, but no need so serious hors.

I HAVE NO STEAD.

Yes, people get that into your minds. Stop spreading rumour about me having boyfriend. Cause I don't. Well, three days ago yeahs. But not now, it was kinda sort of like a silent breaks. Never mention anything about breaking then we sort of breaks lers. YAY, single is fun. Can go anywhere without reporting to your lovelovelove. Ohwells.

Okays, I hoonki siao agains lers. Need go smoke. Sososo, next time then post bahs. Later maybe go sentosa ^^ MAYBE.

Very tired nows, yesterday 1 am like that zao out of house to meet Sky (pangseh me with the four-plets). Had to take a cab down all the way to bedok south lahs. Damn dulan cause the uncle take my ten dollars ): Stupid uncle. Anyways, slack with Sky damn retarded de lors. He make all the lame jokes over make me laugh lahs. We sit at block 37 for very to wait for Terence to come. I almost wanted orhorh liaos lors. After that sit Terence's super hot car, and I mean really sizzling hot, tombang us to Changi. I alight there to meet Matthew Jeffrey Dean and Kendrick. Then before alight Terence purposely make one round for us to see the "ducks". If you know what that means. It's like freaking gross cans, they were shaking their FAKE booty in front of you which so totally turn me off. Like duhh. Fuck off she-males. Gross ><

Then wanted to go in OCH de, but Dean and Matthew don't want go in and ask me don't go in. Sian lors. In the end only Jeffrey and Kendrick went in nia. Then slack at kopitiam, play psp then go home lers. Reach home sleep from 9 sleep til 4 then wake up bathe then go out. Meet Kailin for awhile, then meet PAPA to retrieve my laptop (x3). After that slack with Clive until 8 plus then go home lers. Then reach home until now keep online til now. Sibei sian de. Audi now under maintenance, NOTHING DO !!!

FUCK LAHS. Hahas, when say fuck remind me of Dean's immature and misunderstatement yesterday. Damn funny. But it will remain private and confidential (^.^)

I just can't seem to get it at all. Each and every time I choose to give you up, finally, you will do something screw up all my thoughts. Making it hard for me to let you go. It's confusing, mind-shattering. Just a simple text message from you has already made me cry my heart out, like just like that. You matter this much too me, but do you know it? Every time you hold my hands, snuggle me in your warmth, I feel like nothing in this world could pin me down. With you, nothing is important, notthing seems to trouble me at all. Yet, what you did cause me tears that I never thought I would shed. It felt as though my heart was torn apart. Is those promises that you made just empty ones? Just tell me 3 simple words, with sincerity. And promise me that you will be there for me no matter what happens. That's all I need, assurance. Simple as that.

` I'll hold you till end of time.
` I'll stand by you no matter trouble or obstacle comes our way.
` You are mine, and only mine.
` Will you be there for me like I am for you?

FUCK. Some siao gina want come tio my daiji. Cheebye lehs. Come lahs think I scared ar. I make sure you no need walk anymore, think twice before you talk bo lanjiao. Ask you bao your chup name keep saying something else. Bo backup then say lahs. Your daiji I chup where de mehs, your daiji I study where stay where hur. PCB, I make sure I dig your grave for you.

john says:
u ppl touch ur breasts b4?
john says:
got or not
*
john just sent you a nudge.
*
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
....
john says:
got play wit guys or not
john says:
then let the guy touch ur bra?
john says:
cfm the guy steam
john says:
got or not
*
john just sent you a nudge.
*
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
what lahs
john says:
got play b4 or not la
john says:
say la
john says:
cfm got rite
john says:
let the guy kiss ur neck n touch ur bra
john says:
touch ur legs make ur cheebye wet
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
don't have, diam lahs
john says:
got la
john says:
u sure dun hav meh..ur bf la cfm touch u b4 wat
john says:
no touch meh u cfm or not
john says:
if i ur bf i play wit u make u wet
john says:
ur underwear wet
john says:
u gt bf or not
*
john just sent you a nudge.
*
john says:
u fall in love wit who
john says:
so dao
john says:
u talkin dirty wit guys huh
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
diaos
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
you bitch is it
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
ccb
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
diam lahs.
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
so big come out settl elahs
john says:
sry la
john says:
u frm wat gang
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
talk to you will want to puke blood de
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
your problem what gang i in is it
john says:
u frm wat gang
john says:
gt gand or not
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
you what de
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
say lahs humji kia
john says:
u frm wat sch
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
you daiji i from what school is it
john says:
i ask ppl come look 4 u
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
come lahs
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
i scared ah
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
you what chup de
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
say lahs
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
i make sure people say hello to you with their fist
john says:
scgs
john says:
bukit panjang
john says:
okie la.
john says:
u better no go sch
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
come lahs
. ♥ violet. // irreplaceableee. says:
knn


He sibei humji lahs, after saying all that then log off. Like whatever. So big come lahs. Fuck lahs bo mood post liaos. MAKE SURE YOU SPAM THIS EMAIL: johnny_goh@live.co.uk

我的宝贝 .
KHOO KAILIN! don't anyhow think kays, he is happy with you every single moment. whether he appears happy not, he still is. don't think too much. even if he abandons you (which he won't, if not i whack him), i'm ALWAYS here for you. cause you are my one and only twinnieeeeee!

okays, end of post. wanted to post more but lazy. this post shall be dedicated to my love kailin!

for him to notice me. ♥

no more school. (:

no mother.

a thousand other wishes grant for me. ♥

eeyores and cookie monster.

more outings with my gans.

newnew cupboard of clothes. ♥

nose piercing asap.

from 42kg become 39kg. ♥

14 March Friday .

Go to Juvenile Court .

Go Sentosa .

Ton at Chalet ( ECP ) .

Meet bbaby .

15 March Saturday .

Ton at Chalet ( ECP ) .

16 March Sunday .

LAN outing .

17-21 March M-F .

Pon School Successfully .

Ton with Zhong and kkor .

22 March Saturday .

Go kkor house .

25 March Tuesday .

Go to School ( SUCKER ) .

26 March Wednesday .

Pon School ( Hope to ) .

Go kkor house .

♥carolynn
♥ghim`pheng
♥hazel`pandion
♥jenna`banana
♥joanna`MAMA
♥kailin`twinnie
♥kailing`dasao
♥kelvin`korkor
♥kenji
♥lemuel
♥lyn`gummylover
♥min`quan
♥natalie`frenchbabe
♥platoonnnn
♥qingyi
♥sherilyn`junior
♥shin
♥sky`superman
♥valerie`mokmok
♥weilun`boo
♥xinyuan
♥zhanrong`bobby

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