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Thursday, February 28

1:22 AM

Thankyous Khoo Kailin and Lyn Tan. You 2 bodoh heads really brighten up my day ya? Thanks for your blog posts to me, dammit I almost wanted to cry. Seriously, today go to school actually very emo de, then Jeanette and QinEn over there trying to tickle me let me laugh, but really cannot. Then got this dumb fucked nurse staring at me then say siao, Junyang wanted to whack her mans. It was damn stupid and hilarious. Thankyou guys, cupcakes forever ya(: On my way to school then I receive SMS from him, I straight away not emo lers lor, I was like damn happy. Can ask Lyn. She saw me like what bodoh sia. Spend the whole day with Lyn`bestie :D Ohoh, I DREW A LION. I never knew I can draw after like, 3-4 years? Gosh, everyone was complimenting me. Shall go take a shot the finished work with paint on then post on blog. Heh xD

Ran away from home from saturday to monday. Saturday pei him go around everywhere, then at night ton at his house. But morning saw something make me very heart pain, kept on crying lors. Thanks to Vince and WeiCai Korkor, keep making me laugh. Especially Vince, rush out of house to pei me. You're the bestestestestest meifu I ever have, treat Kailin well okays! Then stupid korkor take so many pictures of me being stupid or candid. Damn fucked D: But I got a couple of them too anyways, shall post post post. Hahas, don't blame me people. Who ask you xD Then sunday night went to Geylang Lorong 6 fish for PRAWN :D Stupid Vince keep don't want let me have a chance, but when I emo that time he got pei me so I forgive him. Boo lahs, then korkor and him keep making me laugh until I want to emo also cannot lers. After that one plus we go Grandlink play pool. Sibei cheebye, I hardly play tio cause I kept smoking. On sunday I smoke damn alot cause of the incident, was damn upset. I think I smoke at least like 2 or 3 packs. AT LEAST. Then actually we leave to go Lorong 41 there drink beer de, then after that korkor and dasao plus Uncle Simon go home. Then I with Vince and Gan`ma go back Grandlink there play lan. We three chiong audi together for one hour plus going two hours I think. Until 5 plus then reach gan`ma house. Then Vince and saw hwa chong student then we keep saying what, they going school we going home sleep. They sleep we play. Damn retarded lors.

Anyways, monday just slack around and everything lors. Lazy post lers. I MISS KHOO KAILIN CAUSE SHE IS IN CAMP ): And I miss him too :\ Just patch back but I really very scared get hurt again.

Okay, I was smoking. Admitted.

Korkor take my phone at chalet to zilian.

Korkor take Vince acting gay, me emo at the back.

Vince attempting to act pro.

They look like they are *erhem*

Tuesday, February 26

1:37 AM

I cried my heart out, I cut my wrist, I slashed my hands. And all this was for you. You said I didn't know when you were crying, you said I didn't want you anymore, you said I didn't understand you at some point of time. In fact, I knew you were crying and it caused me heartaches. And I want you more than ever, but I can't cause what you did really hurt me alot. I never got into this kind of situation before, it's tiring. Quarrelling with you everytime, using breaking up to hurt you is the only form of defence I can give myself. I feel insecure with you, cause i'm afraid you will leave me someday. Never had I felt this miserable, or should I say I never felt what heartbreak was in all my past relationships. I was always the one that broke up with the other party, though this time I initiated the break up with you too but it's different. Caused that action that you did really pains me. It's way more difficult for me to endure and take the pain from what I did from hurting myself. It's comforting to know that you love me, but it's suffocating when I know that the love you give me is shared with someone else. This is getting all too hard for me to take it all by myself. I want to be able to share your problems with you, stay by you when you need me, and give all my love to you when you want someone to love you. But it's to the extreme now, i've got no one other than myself to take it all. I will endure, though I know this won't be good for me. If the answer that i'm getting is something negative, i'm afraid I will break down. In fact, right now at this moment, I can die. Straight away, i've got nothing on my mind is worth me staying on. Yes, not even you anymore.

Rahhhhhhs. Yes i'm hurt ): HOW.
Taken abackkkk.

Thursday, February 21

3:27 AM

I'm damn fucking piss. Is it all just a

lie?

2:38 AM

Ohwells, damn you people! I'm doing it okays. ( Directed to LYN and KAILIN )

1. name - 小兔 violet
2. birthday - 31 January
3. height - 160cm
4. school - Singapore Chinese Girls' ( attempting to transfer out )
5. best friend(s) - QinEn, Lyn, Kailin and Hazel ?

FAVOURITES
1. high-fashion brand - Is there middle class ?
2. food - Japanese and Italian :D
3. colour - Pink, Green, Black, VIOLET, White, Red, Silver and Bronze
4. song - 我是你的天空, Lollipop by Mika, Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys, Teenagers by MCR and 一千遍我爱你
5. music - Heavy Metal and anything ?
6. number - 3 and 7
7. word - "puacheebye" ."fuck you lurs" ."kanina" . ( yay! )
8. memory - like, oh ?
9. snack - you .
10. person - CLIVELIMJUNYOU !

Q&A ; SELF
1. are you happy with yourself? - maybe
2. do you wish you could change something about yourself?
- like millions
3. what's your nicest feature? - uh, none ?
4. do you wish to have a twin? - no thanks, i'm troublesome enough
5. what's your biggest fear? - creepy crawlies and heartbroken
6. what's your greatest achievment? - not applicable
7. do you want to be famous? - probably not
8. do you think you are better than your friends? - nope
9. do you think you are trendy? - maybe
10. what's your style? - emotional retard :D

Q&A ; LOVE
1. who & when was your first kiss? - kevan in the cinema ( wrong move ): )
2. do you have a crush? - nope
3. if yes, what's the last letter of your crush's name? - it's not applicable[:
4. if no, who was your last crush? - hmph, someone with letter B
5. how many ex-es have you had? - serious ones ? 4 probably
6. if you could erase one of your past relationships, which? - all
7. what's your sexual status? - a definite virgin
8. do you believe in sex before or after marriage? - after lahs, bodoh
9. do you always get the people you want?
- most of the time
10. have you been turned down? - like, never ?

CHOOSE ONE ;
1. ashley or mary-kate? - myself
2. straight or curly? - straight
3. heels or flats? - either, both works for me
4. black or white? - black
5. jimmy choos or manolo blahniks? - who the heck ?
6. louis vuitton or chanel? - I like GUESS
7. half empty or half full? - isn't it the same
8. paris or milan? - london
9. skirts or pants? skirts or shorts
10. long or short hair? longgggg :D

5 PEOPLE TO DO THIS ;
1. you, the one reading this
2. probably HAZEL GOH QI XUAN ?

Wednesday, February 20

10:05 PM

What is fucking wrong with all of us now? Why can't we be like before? Where all of us are friends, getting along perfectly well. I don't like it like that at all. It's getting so miserable for all, well at least me. Maybe he is trying too hard, but it's because he feels neglected. However, it's not all his fault right? It's the vibes that was sent to him. Everything seems to be in a mess now. I'm confuse, unable to think through properly. Let's just be how we were before, sa`rights? But I know it's impossible, can never be again. I'm missing those moments when we went biking together happily, like nothing seems to matter. Guess everything happened for a reason, predestined. If only I can make a change, I would hope for a way out to all these, making it how it was before.

Okay, that was some heartfelt thoughts. Like seriously. Going to school is like routine, not an enjoyment for me anymore. Mrs Tang was being sucha bitch, kept on ranting on about me being bright and intelligent rubbish. Well i'm telling you, I'M NOT. I'm just a fucking retarded bitch who you just seem to think too highly of me. I'm not a pachyderm who goes around boasting about my results, cause there are others who have done better than me. So there's nothing to be proud of, seriously. Hence, FUCK OFF. I want to transfer school, so don't come suffocating me with all those crap about my mother being reluctant for me to change school. She may be unhappy but I think if I were to transfer out of SCGS, I will excel better. I am drowned by all your hopes and it stresses me like fuck. Please, stop all your nonsense. What makes you think you are capable of changing me, the more you force me to do things that you want, the more I will rebel. The more I would like to do things that you dislike. So bitches, stop making me who you want me to be. I would rather live for myself, more than you telling me that I should live up to your expectations. I'm not that bright or being able to have self-discipline to control myself. Stop pushing me, if I were to break down and collapsed one day, you are the primary cause of it.

Sunday, February 17

10:35 PM

Lazy post .

Fucking piss with Kendrick and ZhanRong .
Okays, maybe not as much for ZhanRong .
But Kendrick, rahhhhhs ):

Thursday, February 14

10:57 PM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :D
140208!

Okays, today is valenvalenvalentine's day. ANDANDAND VALENTINA YONG'S birthday! Happy birthday girl. Pontang school again today, 4 days no go school lers. Mama bo scold me, just ask me wake up to clear my stuff. Then somemore last night she tell me if I never go school today cannot go out. But today morning after I bath she tell me to clear all my things then I can go out and ask me come home before 8 somemore. Weird seh, tell me cannot go out still let me go out hahas.

Sian, go out at 1 then reach Bugis at around 1.20pm. But dardar, Zhanrong, Yijie and Kendrick all haven't reach. Make me wait 2 hours. Good, very dua pai make me wait. Wanted to cry nor. Before they come saw Gary. Then he ask me to ask Clive wait him awhile. They go Alice there try gothic clothes. Then when they come, dardar ask me wait for awhile then he run off. Don't know to where. Then he come back with a box, then give me say "happy valentine's". I open the box is a ring[:

He so zai seh, guess my ring size zhunzhun fit my fingers. Every finger also can wear the ring, fit JUST NICE. Not too big or too loose[: Then we go buy ticket after that go Alice's shop meet Gary and one other person. Hahas, after that want go watch movie that time mummy call me go home. Cause the fucking cheebye want come my house visit me as they say I sick for so many days so want visit me see if I okays. Make me waste my money seh >< waste my eight dollars): fuckfuckfuck. Then somemore they say the movie damn good. Ohwells. Then after the "talk-chit-chat" session with the 2 teachers I go out meet dardar they all again. Then after that deardear and Kendrick send me home. Reach home lers, then go out again meet Roy slack. Then dar and Kendrick pei me slack with him. After that come home then staystay slack at home.

valerie` [: hahas, causecause this one is my new blog mahs, just reset up of course no tag. I change number nahs, I tell you on MSN my new number next time kays!
lyn` [: going one month lers okay, 3 more days! YAY. yesyes my gooooodluck charmmy. But I maybe changing school worscxcxcxcxc. LOVE YOU BABE!

ILOVEMYBAOBEI :D

1:44 AM

Finally, I'm in a better mood to post lers. This few days keep emo-ing. A lot problems at home. Then everytime I tulan at home I will vent my anger with my dardar. Also everytime threaten him say breakup ): Sorrys dardar, not on purpose de. But still you also don't know how I really feel. Everytime you pangseh me to go home or go with your friends, I very upset. Cause you promise me will accompany me home de, but in the end never ): But cannot blame you, your mama and papa always kpkb.. Rahhs ): Doubt you will even read this post also, you don't even know I got this blog de. Ohwells, so I just diamdiam wait there. But I very scared if next time I throw temper then you cannot take it really agree to my suggestion about breaking up hows. So I will think twice before I say anything lers.

Anyways, a lot movie watch lers. CJ7, KungFu Dunk, AhLong Pte Ltd all three watch lers. The best is KF Dunk then AhLong then CJ7. KF Dunk damn good cause Jay act til very hilarious then like a comedian. But when he do the photostrip book for Gillian was damn sweet lors. like is he do the thing for her on her own accord one lors. This one is watch with dardar alone de. Sian nor, movie was at 9.30pm. Reach home 11 going 12 lers.

CJ7 the creature very cute(x If outside got sell the toy I sure buy de! Then dardar keep saying the boss look like Adrian. Hahas, Adrian sit down there like tulan hahas. Damn funny. Some weird person sit next to me [Oo] AhLongAhlong Funny show. Lazy elaborate liaos.

Simple nahs, I all three all watch with dardar de and 2 movie is got friends join de.

Go play audition lers :D

1:21 AM

Okay fine. I'm back to blogger. Xanga is way too boring after all.

I AM DEAD.

Yes, I am. So don't bother me much. Cause I'm emo-ing everyday. No idea. Stress and so fucked up.

ilovehim(: